Day 331

My heart is still shattered, but I am able to focus today (and wash my hair). I took a personal day from work to grieve and care for myself a bit. Unfortunately I woke up at 6am and was not able to get back to sleep. After an hour of laying in bed torturing myself with worries and sad thoughts, I got up. I emailed Jon and sobbed for an hour. Then I got off my butt and went jogging around my complex. I needed to expend energy on something other than crying and worrying. Some people say that jogging gives them time to think to clear their heads. For me it is a chance not to think. By the end of the first lap all I can think about is putting one foot in front of the other and breathing. I count my laps and keep track of my times... it is a great break from real life. Today I was able to jog a full 5k at what I believe to be a personal best time!

1st lap- 5:39 min - j
2nd lap - 11:19 min - j
3rd lap - 17:04 min - j
4th lap - 22: 55 min -j
5th lap - 28:40 min - j
6th lap - 34:31 min - j
.1 - 35:12 min - j

Days 329 - 330

March 26, 2011

This morning I jogged around my complex and did pretty well.I did a full 5K, but had to walk .5 miles of it. Still though, I am happy with that.

1st lap - 6:01 min - j
2nd lap - 12: 11 min - j
3rd lap - 18:23 min - j
4th lap - 24:50 min - j
5th lap - 32:08 min - w
6th lap - 38:15 min - j
.1 - 39.04 min - j

After my jog, I showered and started on my list of chores. Jon said we could Skype for a while before he began working on his project. So we did - one thing lead to another - we got angry, we became sad, I became hysterical and sobbed - and.... I finally forced him to say it: "The engagement is off. I am done." He had been dancing around it for a long time and I believed I could make everything alright if I just got him to say "I do". If I could become his wife and move to Florida, everything would smooth itself out. That is what I convinced myself of. I was wrong - we love each other dearly, but we aren't meant to spend our lives together. I couldn't admit it and I don't think he wanted to. Either way, it is over.

Needless to say, jogging was not exactly my priority after that. I spent most of the day sobbing. As an act of defiance against myself, I decided to follow through with my idea of chopping off my hair for Locks of Love. The only reason I was keeping it so long was because of the wedding and Jon likes long hair. So I got it cut and colored. They told me I shouldn't wash it for two days to let the color set fully. So, even if I had been interested in jogging on Sunday I wouldn't have. It would be gross to get myself all sticky and sweaty and not be able to wash my hair.

Days 325 - 328

This week was a busy one. Tuesday night the Glee Girls came over to hang out, Wednesday night I hosted Mayor Parker at an event for work then had dinner with my family for my Papaw's 81st birthday, and Friday I went out for sushi and cupcakes with the girls before going to the dress shop for my alterations apointment. Turns out the dress (the second one I had ordered) was made incorrectly from the factory AGAIN and couldn't be fixed. So I had to order a whole brand NEW dress at $165 more than the original. SO annoyed. On the plus side though it is a full size smaller than the original dress.

Day 324

Today I was actually able to talk almost like I normally do! YAY! the whole squeeking like Minnie Mouse thing was getting very old! And, I can finally breathe through my nose again :) Oh the simple joys that make me so happy!
To celebrate my returned abilities, I joined Mi on her lunch hour walk around the building. We did a full mile again. I am definitely going to need to bring better shoes for the future though. Mine today were alright until I noticed the blister that had been rubbed on the top of my foot. Anyways...
When I got off it was GORGEOUS outside! Seriously, today's weather was perfect!! So, I decided to get outside and push myself. I am SO proud of myself - I jogged 2 miles!Of course I would have LOVED to do 3.1, but considering I haven't jogged in forever and have been sick all week I am thrilled I accomplished what I did. :) I even managed to make it at a decent rate - averaged 12 minutes a mile, which is pretty much my normal speed. I also got a bit of a bonus - one of the guys in the complex (I jogged around my apartments) said, "Geeze, you make it around quick". Hehe - I am SLOW according to athletes, but to this guy I was a speedster. :) I love perspective! My times were:

1st lap - 5:59 min - j
2nd lap - 11:59 min - j
3rd lap - 18:26 min - j
4th lap - 24:53 min - j
5th lap - 33:11 min - w

Oh and today I ordered one of the ab mat things that I used at the gym last week. It was a bit more than I would have liked it to be ($30), but I really think it will be worth the investment! I LOVED how easy it made doing sit-ups. :) I just hope it doesn't take too long to get here.

Day 322 - 323

This weekend was absolutely BEAUTIFUL!!! Too bad I felt AWFUL and wasn't able to take full advantage of it. I was supposed to go paddle boarding with Michelle, but couldn't pull myself out of the house to do it. Instead I spent Saturday morning curled up in the lounge chair on my porch watching a marathon of 24 on Netflix. Oh how I adore Jack Bauer! That afternoon, I went shopping with Mom. It has finally warmed up enough to justify the swimsuits in every store and Mom decided to buy me a new bikini. I ended up paying for one too - they were reasonably priced and looked pretty good on me. They will look better when I get back into my workout routine :) Now I have something new to shoot for. Sunday was spent cleaning my house, lounging in my new porch chair, and watched the Lady Bears kick butt! I LOVE Baylor Women's Basketball!! The only exercise done was 25 reps of the cowbell move Michelle showed me at the gym. I bought a 10 lb dumb bell with Mom (they were WAY cheaper than the actual cowbells). Man do my thighs hurt! Its basically a squat with a weight to work the arms too. My arms are fine, but my thighs are killing me.

Day 321

Man I am TIRED today! And, I still feel like booty. I haven't slept a full night all week and can't hardly breathe. But, I am a trooper and still hauled myself to work this morning. I almost fell asleep at my desk, but I was there. I took a nap after work for an hour before Johanna woke me up. She and Ricky are moving this weekend and I volunteered to help out. I made up for my recent laziness with multiple trips up and down the stairs with armfuls of heavy boxes. At her new place, I managed to dodge a ton of giant bees and wasps without dropping any of her breakables. Grr... I HATE things that fly and have stingers!I am not sure how much good my workout did though considering we celebrated the start of the weekend with free nachos and a frozen beverage after we finished unloading. It should even out - right?!

Day 320

This has been a really, really rough week. Instead of working out I grabbed dinner with Michelle before class. Between my allergies and yelling at 17 women for 3 hours, I ended up with coughing fits and a very sore throat. YUCK! I feel like crap!

Day 319

Today was the third day of class. This is the fully physical day, so I got a bit of exercise while demonstrating all of the techniques. The most excersise though came in the hour between work and class. Michelle got permission to bring me as her guest to the campus Fitness Zone. She had taken the Crossfit classes and works out regularly. She also took a rowing class off campus. So, today she showed me some of the things she has been doing at the gym. We started with the rowing machine. I have never done it before, but it was actually pretty easy. I managed to do 1500 meters without breaking a sweat. After that we did 50 sit ups using a back supporting pad. I am not very good at ab workouts. I always seem to screw it up and any attempt at sit ups make my back and neck throb, but do very little for my abs. This pad thing though was awesome! I did all 50 sit ups and I only felt it in my abs :) Then she showed me how to do an arm workout using cowbells. She wouldn't let me off easy (I wanted to use the 4 pound one). I am happy that she didn't though, because I was able to do 20 reps with an 8 pound weight. It didn't hurt at the time, but man I was sore the next day!

Day 318

Today was the 2nd day of RAD. In the hour between getting off (they are letting us out at 5pm this week for Spring Break) and the class, I walked around the campus with two of our students. I have no idea how far we went and it was at a stroll speed, but it is better than sitting at the computer for an extra 45 minutes.

Day 317

Tonight was the first RAD class of the week. Because I knew that I wouldn't be able to work out in the evenings, I walked around the building with Michelle at lunch. I think we managed to do a full mile. It killed my heels though. My flats were definitely NOT made for walking laps. UGH! On my way back to the office, I swung by the Fitness Zone to use thier scale. Mine at home has been acting weird so when it showed me at 122 lbs this morning, it made me curious. I have not been exercising regularly and haven't been great with my diet so iti seems strange to me that I would have lost weight. Anyways, I wore a light sundress so the scale in the FZ should be pretty accurrate. The guy working there checked to be sure it was adjusted properly before I stepped on. It showed that I was actuall 120 lbs!! How crazy is that?! That's almost 7 lbs since October. Everyone says that its because I am losing muscle, which is really not good. :(

Day 316

This morning I walked a 5K with Unity Club for AIDS Walk Houston. I would have liked to jog it, but I wanted to stay with the team. So, we walked instead. It was still good for me though and I was even a bit sore afterwards. But, I was inspired and it was such a pretty day that I decided to go to the park after the walk. I walked one mile while chatting with Sarah, then jogged a 12 minute mile, and walked half a mile as a cool down. Again, not my best showing, but not all together a bad day. Total of 5.6 miles :)

Days 310 - 315

Last week I bought a workout video that has 5 different 10 minute long Pilates workouts. Each workout focuses on a different part of the body. My plan was to wake up a smidge early each morning and do one of the routines. Sounds like a great idea & it actually is. In practice though, it is difficult to make myself get out of bed even a few minutes early. That is why I bought the video last week and just opened it this week. I started on Monday doing Pilates for the lower body. My living room is too small though and I was unable to effectively do each of the moves. Tuesday was upper body. Man - That one worked! My arms were shaking all day long. Wednesday was for the abs. I feel like I will eventually be able to use this to help sculp my midsection, but I need to become more familiar with the moves first. My the time I figured out what I was supposed to do, the instructor had already moved on to something else. Thursday and Friday I was supposed to do full body and for flexibility, but that didn't happen. The snooze button won.

Day 309

OMG! Today was rough! I tried to go jogging, but it did not really work out all that well. I managed to do 1 mile before giving up, but I really felt like I was going to die! Half way through the first lap I got a pain in my side and got very winded. It was just sad. I did pretty good time wise, but I should be able to go further at that pace than I did. I walked a cool down lap and then did light weights. It wasn't a total waste, but it was FAR from my best showing. Just goes to show that I have A LOT farther to go than I thought. Feels like I am starting completely over.

Day 308

Today I defintely should have gone jogging. It was so pretty outside. Instead though, I went to downtown and volunteered at the Race Against Violence. I didn't walk, but I did do self defnse demonstrations so I got at least a little bit of excercise. Sorta. Then I ran a few errands, made 25 napkin rings for my wedding, and hung out for 6 hours with a friend from high school. It was a good day!

Day 307

Today was beautiful! Jenn can't jog because of her athsma, but she has been walking. We decided to explore the natural trails on campus. I have no idea how far we walked, but we walked the trails and then down the sidewalk to another main road and in a giant loop around campus. In total we walked for 1 hour and 10 minutes. Jenn says that walking an hour is usually about 4 miles for her. So, I suppose I can guestimate that we about 4 miles.

Days 302 - 306

This week got away from me too quickly. An Oscar party on Sunday came complete with even more junk food, so I ended up eating more this weekend than I have in months! It was crazy! Monday I didn't feel so hot and Tuesday I left work after only 30 minutes because I was too dizzy to focus. I spent all but 2 hours that day on my couch. Wednesday and Thursday are a blur. They were boring and felt like they took forever. Eventually though my tummy settled - thankfully. I thought about trying to jog, but I was pretty sure I would be sick if I did.

Day 301

My friend Hailey came into town for the show. She doesn't jog, but can walk forever without stopping. So, we decided to go to the park today and walk while we caught up. 5 miles and a lot of conversation later we decided it was time to shower and get lunch. :) We had shoe shopping to do & a fun filled evening of movies and junk food to prepare for. I defintely ate more than the 5 miles burned off! And, I totally paid for it too.

Day 296 - 300

Wow - This past week was crazy. The Monologues was on Friday, so I have been very very busy all week. The show was awesome though. We raised $5984 for our charities and everyone said that our performance was very professional. :) Needless to say, with as much as I had to do getting everything set and ready to go, I didn't have time to jog this weel at all. I know I need to, but.... hopefully next week. :)