Days 329 - 330

March 26, 2011

This morning I jogged around my complex and did pretty well.I did a full 5K, but had to walk .5 miles of it. Still though, I am happy with that.

1st lap - 6:01 min - j
2nd lap - 12: 11 min - j
3rd lap - 18:23 min - j
4th lap - 24:50 min - j
5th lap - 32:08 min - w
6th lap - 38:15 min - j
.1 - 39.04 min - j

After my jog, I showered and started on my list of chores. Jon said we could Skype for a while before he began working on his project. So we did - one thing lead to another - we got angry, we became sad, I became hysterical and sobbed - and.... I finally forced him to say it: "The engagement is off. I am done." He had been dancing around it for a long time and I believed I could make everything alright if I just got him to say "I do". If I could become his wife and move to Florida, everything would smooth itself out. That is what I convinced myself of. I was wrong - we love each other dearly, but we aren't meant to spend our lives together. I couldn't admit it and I don't think he wanted to. Either way, it is over.

Needless to say, jogging was not exactly my priority after that. I spent most of the day sobbing. As an act of defiance against myself, I decided to follow through with my idea of chopping off my hair for Locks of Love. The only reason I was keeping it so long was because of the wedding and Jon likes long hair. So I got it cut and colored. They told me I shouldn't wash it for two days to let the color set fully. So, even if I had been interested in jogging on Sunday I wouldn't have. It would be gross to get myself all sticky and sweaty and not be able to wash my hair.